Finding Time

I have to go back to work on Monday! I have had two weeks off and have really enjoyed them, but even with the time off, I still feel like I didn’t get enough time with Sylvia. She still had to work the week before Christmas, but was off this week. However, this is one of the few times that she has NO students and NO other work that has to be done so she wants to just stay home. This is fine, but she doesn’t like to watch TV with me and she wants to chill out and have some time to herself. Again, this is fine with me, but then I am home and don’t have much that has to be done so I want to go and DO something. I took Ethan off to a museum this past Wednesday with my niece. It was a lot of fun and we got ice cream afterwards. Yesterday, we took down Christmas decorations and then Ethan and I went to the library for a while. I don’t mean to complain, because we have had time to nap a few times and we have even been able to sleep in to 8:00 several mornings. I really would have liked more cuddle time at night and more time for love making (OK, I said it, I wasn’t sure if I could). When we are both working, we climb in to bed and just want to sleep. I know that “quantity” is not important, but it doesn’t help when you go several weeks with no intimacy in the bedroom. It wasn’t a complete bust, we did have some time over the break, but it still seems like it has not been enough. We have both been skipping periods and that has allowed for more opportunities, but then today her period showed up. Sorry if this is TMI, but with two women you have twice the luck of having a period nix any chance of love making. I do enjoy being able to sleep in and cuddle in the morning. I enjoy cuddling at night too, but sometimes I just wish for a bit more…maybe I am being greedy and selfish….maybe I just enjoy how close I feel to her when we make love. I will always love her, no matter what! I am getting ready to head to bed and look for some cuddle time!

Still Going Strong!

My relationship with Sylvia is still going strong. We have had a nice few days and we are looking forward to the holidays. I was so tired last night and as we laid in bed and talked, I drifted off to sleep. Ethan woke up before us this morning but he played quietly and let us sleep in. We laid in bed for a bit talking and cuddling. All I will say is we had some good loving going on this morning! It was a nice way to start the day.

Sylvia and I cuddled after our love making and I touched her chest as she touched mine. That is our connection to each other. We are so connected and that is why our love is so strong. We make sure we stay connected by cuddling each night and morning. We make sure we talk things out if there are small issues, so they don’t turn into huge issues. We talk and talk a lot, but also give each other our own space when needed.

I wish I could explain my connection to Sylvia in a better way….I guess you all will just have to take me at my word.

Things I like!

We will be celebrating our one year anniversary on Monday! Yes, on Halloween! It is hard to believe that it has been a year. I thought I would list the things I like most about being with Sylvia!

1. I like that we cuddle at night before going to sleep. It brings a nice close to our day and keeps us well connected.

2. I like that we set our alarms to go off earlier than we need to so we have time to cuddle before we have to actually get out of bed. On the weekends we may spend up to an hour in bed before we get up!

3. I like that we take care of each other. I have never really had anyone take care of me like Sylvia does. She wants me to be happy and if I am not feeling well she jumps in and takes care of me and if needed the boys so I can rest. I try my best to take care of her too!

4. We talk and we talk a lot. We chat during the day by phone and text. If the other one is tired and doesn’t want to chat right then the other understands that. We like talking.

5. I like our family. Sylvia has turned into a great stepmom. I never imagined meeting anyone who could be so good with the boys.

6. Love! I like the love! I am overwhelmed at times by how much I love Sylvia and I feel how much she loves me in her words and in her actions. We have a true connection.

7. Making Love and Intimacy–enough said.

8. I like that we aren’t clingy. We love being together, but we do our own thing at times.

9. I like the trust. I trust Sylvia and she trusts me. We have never given each other a reason to doubt the other. Trust is important to us both.

10. I like that we work it out. We don’t stay mad. We love each other too much.

I may think of a few more things, but for now these are the things I truly like about my relationship with Sylvia.

Our Visit to Ikea!

When Sylvia moved in she brought her duvet with her. A duvet is like a comforter but it is covered with an outer shell. The cool thing is you can change the covers and they aren’t too expensive. When she moved in she only had a duvet for a twin size bed so we have been needing to get another one. We finally found some time last night to travel to the Ikea store in our area!

Once you get into the Ikea store it is hard to get out without spending a lot of money! We had some money in savings to spend on these new linens, so that made it nice to shop and have the money. We found the inner part of the duvet pretty easily. We finally found the covers and after looking through them we decided on two patterns and also on a red blanket  and two pillow shams. Well once we decided on that we then needed to get two pillows!WE also decided to buy some new towels, hand towels and wash clothes. Overall it was a really fun shopping trip and we got some really nice stuff!  We even ate dinner at the Ikea restaurant!

We came home and got our bed all made. It looks really nice. I worked on both bathrooms this afternoon getting rid of some old worn out towels so that we can put in our new towels.

We made love under our new duvet last night! I think we were both on an emotional high from our shopping trip and it made the love-making even more intense! Oh, how I love her!

Opening Up My Heart

Sylvia and I had another wonderful night last night. We spoke about Tuesday night and all it meant for us. Soon one thing led to another and we were making love.. Now, some might say that I was little too detailed in my last post. So in regards to last night, let me just say that it was another wonderful night of passion. I once again felt so close to her. I clung to her afterwards, almost in tears because I felt so close to her.

We cuddled afterwards then tried to go to sleep. My brain was in such a whirlwind. I told Sylvia about this and she asked me to explain it to her. I just could not get my brain to calm down. I was so overwhelmed by the love we shared and our future together. Sylvia was so sweet and stayed awake to talk to me. She assured me that she wasn’t going anywhere and that we have the rest of our lives together.  We spoke for a long time and I realized that I had opened my heart up to Sylvia. I don’t even think I had ever really opened up my whole heart to my ex husband. He always found a way to hurt or disappoint me so I hid part of myself. Some of it wasn’t his fault. I was never meant to be with a man, but I have no regrets about that part of my life or my two boys. I realized that I don’t have to worry about trusting Sylvia with my heart. I see, in her eyes and in how she treats me, that she loves me whole heartedly and that I could share my heart whole heartedly with her.  This idea is what sent my brain into such a whirlwind. I shared this with Sylvia. I feel that I can tell her anything without fear of being made fun of.

I drifted off to sleep some time after one o’clock. I woke up this morning with Sylvia feeling so good about how things are progressing. My brain is still in a bit of a whirlwind, but it has calmed quite a bit. We both were tired all day, but last night was well worth it. My heart is safe with Sylvia as her heart is safe with me.

Enjoying our Summer!

We are continuing to have a good summer. We have had a few mornings we have had to get up early, but generally we lay in bed for about an hour after we wake up. We cuddle, talk, and sometimes enjoy some love-making! I took Ethan to the Rec center around 6:00 last night, got home around 7:00 and then cooked dinner. We ate around 7:45 when Sylvia got home. It is just so nice to not have to rush to get kids to bed or get work done. I also started a LONG book last night, but am excited to be reading it! I so enjoy reading!

Sylvia and I both stay busy with some work in the summer. She has a bit more than I do right now, but overall we find time! We are going to run to buy some blinds for the den this morning with some money we made at our garage sale! I am excited!

We leave on our vacation in about  four weeks! We are all excited about that! I hope everyone else is having a great summer!

That Feeling, Again!

Sylvia returned home yesterday from being gone for two nights. We spent some time just lying in bed yesterday afternoon and talking. It was so nice to have her home! My mom was in town so Ethan and I ran to meet her for dinner. Sylvia was tired from her drive so she decided to stay home and Jake just didn’t want to go.

Ethan and I returned home and I soon got him to bed. It was 9:00 by the time I got him in bed though so Sylvia and I were not too far behind him in going to bed. We lay in bed talking and then soon started kissing. I had started to make my move when she turned the tables on me and soon had me on my back making her move. I don’t know any other way to describe it without sharing too much. I am just not one who likes to share those kinds of details.

I didn’t mind that Sylvia made this move on me, in fact, I rather liked it. It is a little bit of dominance without being too hard-core. When I climaxed last night, it was such an overwhelming feeling. I felt so much love and felt so connected to Sylvia physically, mentally and emotionally. All I can say is it was “that feeling” that connects me to Sylvia. I held onto her and didn’t let go. She held me and we talked after a few minutes. This connection is so strong that Sylvia and I have. It is something that I have only experienced with her. It is something that I never want to give up. I love her so much!

 

 

Smiling!

I am smiling as I write in my blog today. The word “smiling” is something that Sylvia and I text to each other when we are happy! I think it is something that is very nice about our relationship. Sylvia is officially all moved in, not that she wasn’t living here already but now all of her things are here! She no longer has her “other” home to go to!

How do I describe our relationship? It is one built on trust and love. My love for Sylvia knows no bounds. When we make love I feel SO close to her and she to me. I have never had this closeness. I love that we share a bed together and feel the need to be close at night. It may be to cuddle, to chat, or comfort the other if we are sad or ill. I really didn’t know what to expect when I started this journey but I have found so much. I couldn’t be any happier than I am right now.

Which do you prefer?

Sylvia and I were laying in bed the other night cuddling. We had just finished making love and we were enjoying the cuddling and talking. I mentioned that I was still amazed at how much I had enjoyed making love to her. I believe I have mentioned this in other blog entries. She then posed this question to me, “Which do you prefer more…making love to me or me making love to you?”

You would think that would be an easy question to answer, but it wasn’t. It is two totally different experiences. I never doubted I would enjoy the right woman making love to me. Who doesn’t enjoy someone touching them in all the right place. Granted I was nervous about that person being a woman, because I had never been with a woman, but I assumed it would be a good experience. I believe  was more nervous about ME making love to a woman. I mean, I knew the mechanics of it and figured I would learn more about it, but I didn’t know it could be such a wonderful experience.

So, how did I answer Sylvia. I told her I enjoyed both and for different reasons. I really don’t have a preference. There are times when I feel the need to make love to her and other times that I feel the need to be made love to by her. Both are wonderful experiences and I always feel so close to Sylvia after each experience. She was satisfied with my answer.

She then asked what I felt when I make love to her. NOW that was hard to answer. There is a physical connection that I enjoy, but a lot of it is the emotional/mental part of it. We talked and she got it.

It is nice that we can discuss these things and these talks bring us even closer. We slowly drifted off to sleep in each others arms, after our talk. I have never slept so good!